I wanted to share with you a sign I received from heaven the other day.
It would be a lie to say that my heart doesn't ache at some point each day. Since the turning of the new year, I have followed a similar pattern to my first new year without Gabriel. I hurt, I am sad and some days I wish I was a bear so I could hibernate all winter with no questions ask. The difference between now and this time last year, is that I am filling my blessings jar with happy moments as often as they occur. This has helped take the edge off my pain, but it has not made me forget the second birthday that is fast approaching.
I have ached, I've cried, and even now there is a hint of sadness in my eyes. But, as I walked my puppy, Kida, at the park the other day, I was lost in day dreams. The snow was falling lightly, an image of a giggling two year old seemed so real I could almost touch my Gabriel. As I looked down at the base of a huge walnut tree, I caught glimpse of a walnut cracked in half. As I bent to craddle the small treasure, my eyes found a small heart inside the walnut shell. Tears fell as I clutched it to my chest and whispered a thank you to the sky. I was so blessed to see such an amazing sign that my angel knew I loved him.
