It may seem silly to some but I have decided that I will continue to celebrate monthly birthdays for the time being. I still can't believe how quickly time vanishes, sometimes I close my eyes and it was just yesterday when I held my precious Gabriel for the first time. We went out to see him today and brought along a small Hulk toy. (What boy doesn't love Hulk???) It was so beautiful out too. It reminded me of last summer when I would take the blanket out to the cemetery and lay there for hours, it brought me such peace. This summer will be my first summer away from Springfield since before I was pregnant. It would be a lie to say I'm not nervous, maybe even borderline terrified! In June I go on a week and a half long vacation to Florida with Gary, which shouldn't be too bad. But about two weeks from when we get back from there, I head out to Oregon to see my moms side of the family for a month. I've needed the break away for a little bit and Oregon has always been a place where I can go to think and become closer to myself again. It's the place I figure out what I want and what I believe. In the past it hasn't been a problem to pack up and head out for the month but this year....I am a lot more hesitant. It seems silly almost, Gabriel will be with me no matter what but I guess it has been a luxury to be right down the road from where he rests. The thought of being so far away from him almost makes me cringe but why?
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