Father's Day 2013

Our second Father's Day has now come and gone. For me it seems almost impossible for us to be working our way up through the list of "seconds"....it makes me panic to think we are working up to his second heavenly birthday already! It has felt like eternity since I watched Gary holding our little one and yet the days since have gone by in a blink of an eye. Yesterday started off with chocolate cupcakes for breakfast at the cemetery. Since Gary's birthday was yesterday too I thought it would be a sweet gesture to sing Happy Birthday to him, he loved it! After that we went to the park so Gary could play his weekly role-playing game with all the other guys and while I was out there I finished the greatest book I have ever read. It is called, "Choosing to See" by Mary Beth Chapman. This book was written beautifully and I highly recommend reading it if you are struggling with your faith after experiencing a loss. I feel a tugging in my heart again and maybe it is time that I turn to God to let him help heal my soul. We ended the night with a very relaxing dinner at Cheddar's with my mom and her boyfriend. We didn't talk about Gabriel at all during the day, which of course felt odd and out of place for me. I don't think it was intentional and at the end of the day, Gary had an amazing time.