I have decided instead of doing the normal Facebook status with what I am thankful for I will use it as another photography project! I want to spend this month focusing on my blessings every day.
My first day is a little behind but it is a holiday picture Gary and I had done last year for Christmas. This picture holds so much meaning, it used to make my heart ache though. I would be angry with God and ask him, why? Why could I not even spend one Christmas with Gabriel? I would think about how I wanted things to be, I wanted the fussy baby being a pain in the neck as we tried to capture the perfect photo. I wanted pictures of Gabriel in a little Santa hat with a big cheesy grin on his face. I wanted him hone for the holidays. In the beginning I would beg God to bring him home to me, even for a day that was all I needed, all I wanted. When it came to this picture though I heard that people were questioning why I had even put Gabriels name on there to begin with it, to say the least it stung to hear people so unsupportive. I had struggled a lot with the decision to sign the card baby Gabriel, but it felt right in my heart at the time so I went with it. Looking back I am so thankful! God knew I would need this! The other day I was staring at this photo and started to cry, but instead of tears of heart ache they were tears of joy, I will always have at least a single family portrait from one of my favorite holiday season. My Gabriel was alive in that picture, he knew love and my voice, he knew songs I sung and his daddys voice. I am thankful and blessed to forever have this picture.
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