Grief Work

It has been a few days since I have been able to post, my blood sugar levels have been extremely out of control leaving me weak and sick. Today I am feeling better and after a visit to my doctor I am focused on changing my life style to better suit my health. I can't continue with my 30 days of thanks like I originally anticipated, I have been a little more of an emotional wreck than I thought I would be. As the days get closer to Thanksgiving it is taking a toll in my grief. The last few nights I have been crying for Gabriel, I can't imagine the fact that I should have a little boy here learning how to crawl and starting to talk. It is really hard.