Today I am thankful for my husbands day off. For some reason today was so difficult on me, I was missing Gabriel beyond belief and my heart was aching. I was looking through his memory box and about burst into tears, I couldn't believe that everything that happened is real. I felt incomplete.
We ended up stopping by Garys parents house, they had people there to help clean things from the fire. Two of the women who were helping commented on my memorial tattoo. They said they really liked it and that it was beautiful! Then Garys dad said,"That was the first tragedy of the year, he didn't survive." And Garys mom said to the women,"Yea, that's one of our grandbabys". Just hearing them mention him almost brought tears to my eyes. A lot of times I worry that my family is moving on and forgetting Gabriel, so to hear them talk about him even a little was wonderful.
We then spent time out at the cemetery laying with our baby. I sang to him again and the weather was beautiful. I wish I could spend every day out there with Gabriel, it is always so peaceful. Overall it ended up being an okay day, I survived one breath at a time and now I hope for a better tomorrow.
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