I Close My Eyes

I close my eyes for a moment, I feel the thumping of my heart. I remember what it was like to hear your heart beat, such a beautiful and calming rhythm. It sounded like the ocean when you hold a sea shell to your ear...that's how I remember you.

I close my eyes for a moment, I trace my hands over my tummy. I remember when you kicked, so strong, so lovely. It felt like you were dancing, and sometimes it was like a thousand butterflies were fluttering inside me, waiting to break free.

I close my eyes for a moment, my hand slips into Daddy's hand, our fingers lock together. I remember when he read to you, the excitement in your movement! I remember when he kissed my tummy, just to tell you "sweet dreams, my son, I love you." I watched his eyes light up, like a child on christmas morning, every time he felt you kick...

I close my eyes for a moment, I see an ultrasound screen, suddenly I am looking at you. I watch you sway and grow, kick and hiccup...such a beautiful boy, I am blessed with you. I love you more than time itself, stronger than the raging waves of the ocean, calm and soft as rose petals.

I close my eyes for a moment, though our time is short I am finally holding you. After long nine months you are in my arms but in heaven...but I know you know me, I know you love me, I know you heard me sing sweet songs just for you. I told you all my fears in the many hours we spent together, in am empty house with you safely in my womb.

I close my eyes for a moment and I remember our precious seconds together. I kissed your gorgeous cheeks, I stroked your tiny hands and held your baby feet. And when we got a moment alone I told you that I loved you, I told you I wasn't ready to let you go, that I would miss you dearly.

I close my eyes for a moment...and we are together one again.