Blessed

Gabriel was a blessing, today I know he was put in my life for a reason. I was chosen to carry a beautiful soul inside of me, even if his life was only 38 weeks long. I got to experience the miracle of life, the amazing emotions that come with knowing you've created someone so precious and wonderful. I was blessed enough to experience pregnancy, something that some women may never experience. I was given a greater purpose, I became a mother. Even though he couldn't stay here with me, I was given nine months of memories to cherish for the rest of my life. I was still able to experience birth, as heartbreaking as it was I got to bring my son into the world. I fought to bring him into this world as much as my body would physically let me. I still got to gaze at his beautiful face, I was able to count his tiny fingers and toes. I was able to hold him to my chest and stroke his hands. I could sing him to sleep, undress him even and admire the baby I grew inside of me. I am blessed with the moments I could have with my son, a strong boy who wasn't ready to enjoy life on earth. I am forever changed by my little one, and though my grief may be great at times it is only part of the healing. There is a greater purpose, a deeper meaning behind this loss and he gave me a strength I never knew existed. My son, I love you! Thank you for blessing my life with your beautiful innocence.