Capture Your Grief, Day Nine

Day 9: Someplace Special
October 9,2012

It is a little after midnight and so I am posting this a tad bit behind. My special place is in the comforting arms of my best friend and true love, Gary. I have always found a sense of safety when he holds on to me closely. While I was pregnant with Gabriel he would cozy up to me, slip one arm under my head and the other arm would prospectively wrap around my bulging tummy. Most nights I couldn't sleep unless we were in this position. I always felt invincible, like no one could harm our baby and me as long as Gary was around. After we lost Gabriel and I had given birth we were moved to a recovery room away from the maternity ward (thankfully). We had said our final goodbyes and it was getting to he pretty late, after midnight. The nurse was so kind and gave the okay for Gary to slip into bed with me. We held on to each other, the world falling apart around us but we were together, entwined together to form one strong being. We drifted off after the exhausting day, safe for the few hours we had.

Even now I find comfort in his arms, when I am falling apart he holds me together and when he is breaking I step up to the plate. I don't know if we could survive without each other...