Capture Your Grief, Day Twenty Five

Day 25: Baby Shower/Blessings
October 25,2012

While I was pregnant we didn't have a baby shower, we were going to wait until after the baby was born and some of our family members were in town for my sisters graduation...we didn't make it to that point. Instead I took a picture of most of the clothes that me, my mom and my sisters bought for Gabriel. Some of them are currently being used by my nephew Talin so they aren't all here but these outfits we are saving in case we conceive another baby.

Where do I even start with my blessings?

1) I was blessed in the fact that I got to hold my baby! I got to smell his skin, kiss his cheeks, touch his tiny feet. I have pictures with him and nine beautiful months of memories!

2) My mother in law brought up holy water from the church chapel. Even though the priest wouldn't come and baptize Gabriel, Gary and I with his mom and dad had our own little baptism. I really wish I had pictures of that.

3) I have an amazing husband who loves me, supports me, cries with me, snuggles with me and so much more. He is my rock, he is sweet and kind and always has been to me. He is one of the most important people in my life.

4) I am loved by my family. Even though they don't always know what to say or understand what I am going through they were there when I needed them and continue to be.

5) Gary and I have our own place, he has a secure job and with the help of his parents we are saving up for our own car!

I have so many, many blessings. God is good, I may struggle most days but right now in these moments I know that Gabriel fulfilled Gods purpose for him on earth.